Office by Alex Penny
Hi, I'm Brittany and this is my personal blog. I don't guarantee something that'll always be profound or beautifully worded, these are just my thoughts and feelings. To be completely honest, I'm a gigantic idiot. Now I warn you, you've stumbled upon every thought that has passed through my mind; no filters, no nothing. Don't be shocked if I say something pertaining to you or offending you. Because this is my personal blog and I don't care and I don't expect for anyone to actually care, I'm just getting it out there.
This is my main blog
we all think of dying, i mean, rather the effect of our deaths. who would care? who would cry? who would be the ones to actually talk to our families? to come to the funeral and pay their respects? who would just think it’s sad and move on? And who would be the ones who didn’t know you and milk it for everything it’s worth?
I feel like an asshole sometimes because i feel like that last one is kinda me when it came to Melody Ross. Dear god no, not in the way where I tried to be sad in order for people to console me or pay attention to me. But hell I didn’t know her and yet, it always gives me such an overwhelming sense of sadness when I think about what really happened to her. Her life was torn away from her. she was a student at our school like any other, if not even better. everyone seemed to love her and she seemed like she was an amazing girl. i never got the chance to know her, yeah i saw her around, but i’ve never actually held a conversation with her, which makes me feel like an ass because i dont really have any right to have these feelings of sadness. but still, i do have them. I came to school monday and looked at where it happened and i thought about it. i heard people talking about her and i cried. I saw tyler and we hadnt really talked but he hugged me and i just couldnt stop crying, because she had a family and she had friends and everyone loved her and everything she could of been, her future was ripped from her. her friends would never be able to shar anymore memories with her, her sister wouldn’t have her sister. i’m sure they had little dorkky fights and moments where they acted like they hated each other but were just messing around, and she’d never see that again. and god the asshole who shot her, the fucking asshole who shot her should never see the light of day and should rot in fucking jail for eternity. i hope he’s in jail right now looking back on how he was being so fucking stupid for pulling the trigger in a crowd of people, hitting someone who had nothing to do with it. i hope he can’t live with the fact that he killed an amazing girl with so much ahead of her.
