February 2012
5 posts
fuck crying
i hate it
i havent had a full on cry like that in a while
it scares me how much i’ve thought of suicide lately
listening to cough syrup just makes me think of it more
i know i never would but i just feel like this isnt healthy
someone get me out of this house and just take me away
i’d like to stop going to sleep crying or feeling so terrible that i wish i could go to sleep and never wake up so i wouldnt have to feel anything anymore
I wish it would get easier
i still have a long way to go though and with all these stupid reoccurring thoughts and ideas its impossible to have a good day. everyday is filled with what if’s or maybes. everyday is filled with stupid ideas about second guessing my relationship stuff and my insecurity about my self as well as where i stand with my friends. and physically, i feel so damn alone,...
for the first couple minutes, i didnt really care that you forgot, but then i just kind of stared at what you said and then it actually started to hit me
and now it really hurts and it’s stupid and even as i tell you its ok it just kinda hurts more but its stupid because its not like we’ve been together for 6 months
its just that we’ve known each other for that long. so i dont...
so many conflicting emotions
alkjdf
ugh i want to be done