December 2011
11 posts
I like checking up on you.
wsupvanessaa:
From time to time. I want to know that you’re still happy, and everything.
too bad you never say a damn thing back
shows how much of an asshole you still are
r0yalflyness:
I think the most comforting thought in my mind is that one day there will be a girl who will sneak into bed and hold me safely all night. When I think of that, it doesn’t hurt so bad anymore.
as much as i’d like to say i feel comfortable enough with you, and that i feel stable with where we are i cant
i know you feel like you’re being bothersome when you talk to me first, and thats exactly how i feel, but i push past that. it just kinda sucks to always have to be the first one to day something. no matter what you say, that you dont want to bother me if i’m busy,...
it felt like slap to the face
like i feel like she hates me
and she doesnt even know
i hate myself
and then you just keep ignoring what i say and it doesnt help. you pinky promised me, and you forgot, then when i brought it up you didnt even say anything about it
my heart hurts.
we live in this awful world where you can never win; if you’re skinny people don’t define you as real beauty, because real beauty is having curves, but if you’re not skinny and you have curves you’ll be perceived as fat. if you’re a girl in high school and you’re a virgin, you’re a prick, but if you’ve had sex, you’re a whore. if you have...
i can feel myself drawing closer and closer to insanity
i finally realized it when i started banging my head on the table
sometimes when i think of suicide, i think of drugs
i think of just riddling my body with drugs and alcohol and becoming just a piece of shit teenager so i can kill myself slowly
and when i finally die, nobody would be sad. everyone would just think i’m a dumb ass teenager who was too arrogant to see what i was doing. in reality, i would know what i was doing, because it’d be like...
i feel like i dont have you anymore
and i know it’s only been a couple of days, and that it’s been because you’ve been sick and tired so you’ve been just sleeping a lot, but i feel just empty
and i wanna help but i cant
i wanna help a lot of people but i cant
i dont want you to be sick and i dont want lauren to be so sad and i wanna make sure audrey is safe and okay and...
i’m not exactly sure what i want right now
what i’m trying to do
i keep trying to convince myself that the reason you’re not talking to me is because you’re sick